In many years I was afraid of expressing myself. Most of my life actually, this was a very terrifying thing for me to do.
When I got older I started to draw a lot, but I would never show those drawings to anyone. When I started writing, I would never share any of it, not even to the people closest to me. The thought of being judged by others and not having them understand my art, not having them understand me, was too scary. For that reason I chose to keep all of it inside myself and hide my art. The fear of rejection was bigger than the pain of being invisible…
From my perspective today I see how creativity is vulnerability. Sharing ones art takes great bravery. When we are creating art, any type of art, we are expressing aspects of ourselves that wants to be known. It is aspects that needs to be cared for.
So when I look back, I completely understand my fear of sharing my art with other people. By doing so I am sharing the most vulnerable aspects of me, without defense, hoping that it will not be judged or disliked.
Most people hold back from being who they really are, in the fear of being rejected because of it. A lot of people do not express themselves in their own unique way, because that is what makes one different from the other. And living in a society that does not support being different makes it a very difficult and fearful thing to do.
When we stand out from the crowd, we are easy victims of other peoples lack of self-love. We are at risk of being judged and disliked, because we are being brave in areas that they themselves are not. Being different and unique is what helps us understand the truth of who we are. Being “the same” does not give us the opportunity of exploring the uniqueness of our soul.
We all came to this life with a unique signature, that makes us different from anyone else. Creativity is what makes us express that unique signature, and that is why it’s so important that we do not hide who we are, but that we are brave enough to share ourselves with the world.
Creativity is magic. It’s a perfect balance between being Divine and Human. It is when we are in alignment with Source, letting it express itself in its human experience.
Expressing my creativity and sharing this with others has been, and still is, a great exercise in self-acceptance. I understand that my value is not based on someone else’s opinion of me.
I am not in a place where other peoples opinion doesn’t effect me at all. But I am in a place where I will not let that stop me from expressing the uniqueness of who I am.
The potential of me being hurt by what some people might think of me, is not big enough for me to build up walls anymore. The freedom of expressing myself and the feeling of self-acceptance, is much stronger and much more beneficial from where I stand today, that I will keep going.
I hope that you too will keep going, expressing your unique self.