What Is Spirituality?


When I first started to consciously study and learn about spirituality, the topics I found myself drawn to was about chakras, extraterrestrials, other dimensions and so on. I loved learning more about each topic and even though I still do, the reality is that I used it as an attempt to get away from my own life.

Spirituality became my distraction and a tool to look outside myself for every answer. It was a resistance to the present moment, and the desire to escape it…

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A Promise To My Heart


Last night I had trouble sleeping. I kept falling in and out of sleep, and I started to feel frustrated because of it. At some point I woke up after a dream. This dream was with such a powerful message for me, and so I feel inspired to write about it, sharing this experience.

The dream started with me sitting in what looked like a bar. There were no lights on, and the vibe was one of grief and misery. The people there came for a specific reason, and that was to read their poems out loud in front of a crowd. Poems about painful experiences, that they were trying to find resolution for, in order to integrate them…

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Emotional Starvation


Some days I feel a deep, inner void that makes me feel completely empty. It’s a part of me that needs attention and care, but does not get it. It is starving.

Emotional starvation is something all of us have experienced at some point in our lives. It is when a need is not being met, and that part of us goes unnoticed. That aspect is suffering to the degree, that it feels like it’s dying. When we are unaware of this aspect of ourselves, the feeling of desperation completely takes over, and because of this many of us seek to fulfill the need in unhealthy ways…

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Waking Up From The Illusion


We live in a society today that is far from fully evolved.
We live in a society that needs change, and I think the earth is taking us in that direction.

The structure of modern society doesn’t allow people to express themselves as who they are or want to be. We are expected to act according to the rules that are within society, and fit into the category of being normal. We are expected to all move in the same direction, having the same experience, and to not think outside the box. We are expected to follow order, not to follow our own internal guidance system. I believe that this is no longer causing expansion on earth, and so it is preparing us for a massive change, whether we like it or not…

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I Am Not To Be Defined

roseWe live in a world today where everything and everyone has to be defined as something we already know. I feel this need myself. It is easier, and it gives a sense of certainty when we judge people to be or act a certain way.
Im starting to realize, how much of an impact and control my physical appearance have had on me, and still has to some degree.

I have never really felt a sense of belonging anywhere, at any point in my life. When I look back on my teenage years, I see a girl desperately trying to find a place to fit in. To fit in somewhere indicates that we have to fulfill a certain standard, which means we have to look a certain way, act a certain way, speak a certain way and so on. This also means that we are not being our true selves…

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Trust Fall


When you reach out and are not caught, that is really painful. It is especially painful when you do not know, how to make what you need clear to your surroundings.

This past week I have been feeling my whole body buzzing, but as an internal feeling. I didn’t know why, but I was definitely not at ease.

I felt hopeless because I was not able to identify what was wrong, and looking at my outer reality, I could sense that something was off as well. My sister, my dad and my dog got sick. Nothing serious, but with that dis-ease in them as well.

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Creativity Is Vulnerability


In many years I was afraid of expressing myself. Most of my life actually, this was a very terrifying thing for me to do.

When I got older I started to draw a lot, but I would never show those drawings to anyone. When I started writing, I would never share any of it, not even to the people closest to me. The thought of being judged by others and not having them understand my art, not having them understand me, was too scary. For that reason I chose to keep all of it inside myself and hide my art. The fear of rejection was bigger than the pain of being invisible…

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Grief Of A Friendship That Never Was


Have you ever had friends that you considered to be really close with, to later find out that this is not the reality? That what you thought was a great friendship, was not at all that great?

Today I have.

The entire day today have made me stay in bed and not get up until now, 6 pm. I have been struggling with the feeling of grief for a friendship, that I’ve just realized was never a real friendship, at least not in my definition of what a friendship is…

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Empowerment As My Keyword


Do you ever feel as if there isn’t enough room in your body? I have often felt like this as a painful sensation in my chest and solar plexus area. In a long time I wondered why.

It started 3-4 years back. I remember that I sometimes tried to prepare myself to die, because of the amount of pain that I was in, and because of the feeling that something was seriously wrong with my body.

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