Yesterday when I was trying to fall asleep, I had an epiphany. It was a moment of complete clarity of which direction to follow. It was a strong but calm feeling, and I knew that it was my intuition guiding me.
Yesterday I wrote a post about whether I know myself or not. Today when I logged on my Facebook, the first thing I see is a quote by Teal Swan, “You can only be authentic to the degree that you currently know yourself”. I smiled because of the synchronicity and felt the truth of that statement, and I wanted to share it with you:)
Synchronicity always makes me feel happy, because it is the signs of the magic in this world. It’s so awesome!
Sometimes I feel like no one knows who I am. Not even myself. It can be really frustrating to feel this way and very lonely at times.
I started thinking about this today after having a conversation with my mother. I don’t remember why we started talking about this, but she said that my sister is more authentic or easier to figure out. I am more complex and hard to read. And I absolutely agree with that. I feel like I have so many walls around me that I am not able to see. The problem is that these walls are not only preventing me from getting hurt or too close to others, they are also blocking my view of myself. I don’t know who I am behind those walls really.
What is my life purpose? A question most of us ask ourselves. What is it I am meant to do and create in this lifetime?
I have been trying to figure this out since I was a child. I have always felt like I was meant to do something, but without knowing exactly what it was. All I knew was that it had to involve helping other people. After years of brainstorming, I decided that I wanted to study to become a nurse, and I have been doing that for over 2 years now.
Today when I woke up and looked outside my window, I was greeted by a beautiful view. Everything was covered by a white layer of snow, and it looked so peaceful. I got inspired to go for a run through a forest nearby.
Lately it seems like a big theme among people are the feeling of being stuck. It is as if we are being given a choice on whether to continue on the path we are already on, or to consciously choose another. How this visually looks like to me, is that I am walking on a straight road that suddenly splits into two different roads, one turning left, the other turning right. In the middle of what is now a crossroads is a sign. On the sign there is an arrow pointing in one direction with the word ”certainty” written on it, and an arrow pointing the opposite direction with the word ”uncertainty”.
Last year (sounds like it’s such a long time ago) I feared the month December. It is the most miraculous time of year, filled with joy and laughter everywhere we turn, and that is exactly what I was afraid of. I hadn’t felt joy or happiness when waking up in the morning for a long time. Instead I felt lonely and hopeless. I feared the thought of facing the energy that December holds, because it felt impossible for me to be present with any sort of happy emotion. Everyone around me seemed to suddenly be in a romantic relationship, with people that loved them. I was afraid that I would see others being happy and being in loving relationships, as a proof to my loneliness and as a proof to me being absolutely miserable. But to my surprise I felt the exact opposite of what I feared.