Lately it seems like a big theme among people are the feeling of being stuck. It is as if we are being given a choice on whether to continue on the path we are already on, or to consciously choose another. How this visually looks like to me, is that I am walking on a straight road that suddenly splits into two different roads, one turning left, the other turning right. In the middle of what is now a crossroads is a sign. On the sign there is an arrow pointing in one direction with the word ”certainty” written on it, and an arrow pointing the opposite direction with the word ”uncertainty”.
I am standing in the middle of these two different paths with no idea which one to choose. I feel completely stuck and unable to move, as if I was standing in quicksand. I have a feeling that the choice I am going to make will have a big impact on the rest of my life, and I am absolutely terrified of walking down the ”wrong” road.
A couple of weeks ago I had a conversation with a friend of mine that validated the way I’m currently feeling. He told me that a while ago he was feeling stuck in the same way as I am now. He explained to me that he felt as if he was being held back instead of expanding. As if he was surrounded by limitations and was not able to evolve. This is exactly how I’m feeling, and I think a lot of people feel this too. It’s like when I try to reach for new hights, all I can feel is a ceiling with the purpose of holding me down. It feels like a blockade that I have to go through in order to expand any further and reach new levels of consciousness.
Since that conversation I have been very aware of the signs that are giving to me through the people around me. Knowing that everything in my reality is my own creation, I also know that the answers to my questions will be provided, I just need to tune in and listen.
Yesterday I was visiting my grandparents. A couple of hours later when i was about to leave, my grandfarther started talking about zodiacs, a topic I have never heard him talk about before. He told me that when me and my sister where young, he and my grandmother had a horoscope made for the both of us. I got really excited and I felt this conversation was going to give me new insights to my current situation. He told me that he didn’t remember much from my horoscope, but what he did remember, was that I would never really feel satisfied or happy in my life, because I would always choose to please people in an effort to feel safe, instead of listening to and following my heart.
It had me thinking, is this my crossroads? Choosing between a sense of security or following my heart? Is choosing to stay in my current situation a choice of safety and certainty? And is choosing to take a leap of faith into the unknown, a choice of following my heart? One thing I know is that I don’t want to live a life where I will never truly be happy, because I continue to choose what is certain and what gives me an immediate sense of safety. I want adventure. I want to live my life to the fullest. I remember a teacher of mine once said to me that the magic happens outside your comfortzone. I know this to be true. With that being said, is there really any doubt left of which path is the right one for me to choose?
What I have come to realise during this experience is, that what matters when choosing the right path, is to become aware of what is currently leading the way. It might be the need for safety and certainty as it has been for me, or it might be something completely else.
Everytime we find ourselves standing at a crossroads, we have the opportunity to consciously choose which path to take, by being aware of what it is that we want. It doesn’t matter if we choose to continue down the road we know or if we choose another direction, what matters is that we have consciously chosen to be where we are.